Yeah, so I've been mulling this over since yesterday and I don't know if I can forgive myself for a long series of stupid decisions. I can admit what has brought me into this funk I've found myself in. Is it forgivable? Absolutely not. They were stupid decisions I can't blame on youth. Money is what I'm talking about here folks.
I'm very irresponsible with money. I married someone who (by comparison) very good with money. I'm like a giant cinder block tied around her waist as she struggles against the tide though.
I will not bore you with specifics, but I do know that if I could get one thing in my head at about 17, it would have been proper money management. I am at a point in my life where a credit score is everything. Where investments would be great but not having the option is brutal. Where friends and peers have made decisions and accomplished things with the same starting point and been much wiser than myself.
I need to stop torturing myself for these failings and start to move on to fixing and living my life. I'm just not ready to. I know this is why I'm unhappy and frankly angry with myself and most of the world right now. I'll table this for the time being since I'm sure it will come up in the "Letter to Myself" portion of this challenge.